LastDaysOfLunar2025

Disclaimer: 1st part of post is about loss.

So a week ago, my beloved family friend since childhood sent me a message that her father left. That night I played "Keep your head to the sky" until my tears stopped.

(I advice you to listen to it while you read this part so you can get the tone/air of my words)

On Monday 2nd, I was at her house almost the whole day. I cried when our eyes met & we hugged so tight. We sat at her room, like we would do since kids. We shed no tears at all even if we discussed the whole situation.  

 

And one really calming sentiment we shared is this...

No matter what happens, you might catch yourself & say "Life is amazing, isn't it?". 

There is a stillness in which peace exists.

A beautiful breeze, sun rays, gentle rain, chirping birds, beautiful flowers, animals, beautiful feelings & laughter shared with people.

Because that's life~ with everything in it.

 

We also laughed a lot. Reciting funny lines from series & shows.

Seeing his pictures, tears just came out automatically but then, calmness. 

 

A day later, it was the day we all had to say goodbye to him.

I sat behind her, even if the family was on the second row from the front, I just wanted to be behind her, watch over her.

Her aunt was next to me & she was holding me tight. 

I was not just Mel, I was one with them in such pain.

When you grieve, love holds you together.

 

At the same day, another clearance happened. 2025 really wanted me to get rid of whatever held love back. Whoever cannot hold my hand or my heart, cannot be in my life. 

That's a death on its own because you realize parts of you have to die as well. Ego, hate, any feeling that shifts the focus away from acts or words of love.

"I found myself never alone
'Cause chances came to make me strong"  as the song says~

 

My body was so tired because of crying & all of this energy but it was worth it. It made me feel like a proper human; connected. I've said, when I exchange energy that goes somewhere with substance, is worth it, because you multiply beautiful feelings. That's why we have got hearts; to connect them.

 

 

 

(Change of song! Actually as I was getting ready, I was listening to 生理時鐘 & 愛享瘦 on repeat. So warm. Nervous system properly regulated through music) 

Although I was tired, I went back home & started getting ready because just the thought of enjoying my favourite food with my best friend gave me so much will.

 

The sky was pink~ The days are getting longer~

I put no make at all. You can guess why. 

Look at my beautiful pho chay with lots of spice~

I'd seriously go twice a week but I'm kinda embarrassed to do so.

With my best friend we always want to praise the chef but we are kinda shy to do so haha. But we're gonna do it one day! This person is responsible for making us feel like we're in 7th heaven.

Oh! One funny thing that happened that afternoon! 

I asked one of the girls who work there who plays house music because it's been a long time since they've played house. There's been so many times where I'd be dead tired from all this generic music & magic! somebody changes it to house & then I can digest my beloved pho better lol. Ugh, you know me & music~ I want my own music or good music in general whenever I go.

And then I wondered... These two last times we came, there was no house music.

 

Don't tell me...   

And I asked... 

               And guess what~?

The one who was absent & so was house, was the charismatic person I have mentioned on a previous post! hahaha Turns out they've also got a good ear apart from their charismatic presence~  Bravo~

 

Beautiful coincidences~