Been incognito for a year+. I turn to my shell for stillness. That’s who I am. But I also like to share, so I want little spaces of audiovisual expression. Thanks. All the love & respect ♡
February 12
It was interesting creating something colourful~
February 14
My favourite colour hues calm me a lot.
Just Melfoy~
I did not create anything with colours today hh.
I just wanted to upload something with my other favourite colour; emerald green.
I did not create anything with colours today hh.
I just wanted to upload something with my other favourite colour; emerald green.
I really enjoyed the eye make in real life. I put more grain on purpose on these video captures~
Vampire caught on camera?
〈🌸ｘ🌹〉Pink Punch
APRIL 2
So I went for my ‘09 side-swept bangs & I see no difference from a decade+ ago me. Obviously because vampires never age...?
APRIL 3
Too difficult to go outside sometimes so the garden is something.
I
believe beauty in nature & melodies, well, in any art in general
can help you switch your focus when you’re on your astronaut days. Not
that you’re feeling less lonely but at least you can choose to isolate
your spirit in a beautiful dimension, a middle dimension of a serene
nothing. I don’t know, don’t mind me, that’s Mel Things© ︎. Be abstract
too, it feels better in there.
APRIL 4
Whoever has read my thoughts on my stories, since I started JJBA this year, already knows how passionate I am about this.
The synchronicity was amazing because this is also the year Part 6 got its own anime adaptation, so it all feels so real as it’s happening right now.
Even if I’m not into these stuff, I gotta say curiosity ended up into devotion. We could talk about it all day & reference till there is no tomorrow.
And through this, I realised how much I was lacking fantasy. Fantasy’s got no limits, it can be bizarre & still touch you.
Think abstract & do not take everything seriously. The world gets lost in their own passions & so can you.
The synchronicity was amazing because this is also the year Part 6 got its own anime adaptation, so it all feels so real as it’s happening right now.
Even if I’m not into these stuff, I gotta say curiosity ended up into devotion. We could talk about it all day & reference till there is no tomorrow.
And through this, I realised how much I was lacking fantasy. Fantasy’s got no limits, it can be bizarre & still touch you.
Think abstract & do not take everything seriously. The world gets lost in their own passions & so can you.
APRIL 10
First cocktail outdoors~
MAY 16
「8:30pm」
Been into this kind of architecture lately & I feel good having a variety to choose when it comes to personal taste on houses. Less cement, more nature & a clear view of the sky.
Been into this kind of architecture lately & I feel good having a variety to choose when it comes to personal taste on houses. Less cement, more nature & a clear view of the sky.
Would the atmosphere be as great without the right lighting complementing the good architecture?
The same goes with music selection. If it’s not paired with smooth jazz or lounge then would any of these do any justice?
I prefer places that give off an autumn vibe. It's my favourite seasons it feels so magical.
I don't know who else feels it too. I've even got an autumn playlist.
Surprisingly enough, deep autumn is also my colour palette~
MAY 27
MAY 31
Tsipiriki x Limonium ♡
Got myself these flowers to remember the day my favourite song of Earth, Wind & Fire started playing out of the blue at the market.
Got myself these flowers to remember the day my favourite song of Earth, Wind & Fire started playing out of the blue at the market.
JUNE 6
JUNE 15
I’d like to leave a quote from Todd M. Thrash & Andrew J. Elliot.
“The heights of human motivation spring from the beauty & goodness that precede us & awaken us to better possibilities”.
Determination, discipline, patience, elegance & Grace are great sources of inspiration.
If only summer days were 27-24℃…
Cannot really consume any cooked food nowadays with such heat, for some reason raw food & juices feel so revitalising.
JULY 3
Felt like autumn this afternoon ♡
JULY 5
JULY 10
For
the completion of 27 years, this gal is dedicating this milestone to
her past versions who left a little something. This little gal is my own
gal ♡
Summer of 2001 on the first picture with my favourite plush animal which was a lion cub.
I used to be a ballerina in elementary years & even if I don’t have photographs from my archery times, this was the closest one showing off my skills with an artist we found at Las Ramblas back in 2005. The other one in Venice it was me subconsciously trying to get stabbed by a Stand arrow in summer of 1999.
And the last one is proof of aesthetics from a young age, I guess~ [ancient greek temple x cherry blossoms]
That was a just cute glimpse ☆
Summer of 2001 on the first picture with my favourite plush animal which was a lion cub.
I used to be a ballerina in elementary years & even if I don’t have photographs from my archery times, this was the closest one showing off my skills with an artist we found at Las Ramblas back in 2005. The other one in Venice it was me subconsciously trying to get stabbed by a Stand arrow in summer of 1999.
And the last one is proof of aesthetics from a young age, I guess~ [ancient greek temple x cherry blossoms]
That was a just cute glimpse ☆
JULY 11
/ɛˈpɪf(ə)ni/
JULY 13
Gal
essence summer playlist because I live in a parallel summer my whole
life. I do not live to make my point across anymore so… whatever you
interpret from this~
JULY 24
The most inspirational eras of Amuro Namie. Blending inspirations is not a random process & it does not work for anyone. You truly need to have it inside of you, like a spark, in order to give birth to something that has your own signature ★ Sometimes it’s a whole business behind such creations but again, you either got it or not to actually own it.
JULY 30
AUGUST 4
I want to quote an article I read about bliss, crediting this cocktail named after this primary emotion.
“We should try to match our physical beats with the beats of the bliss that will be considered as our life beats. For some, bliss is not just an external stimulus, but is an experience pertaining to the soul. The lens that you use to view your life shapes your definition of it. Your idea of ultimate blessedness is not about them. It is about you, about your likes and dislikes and about exploring yourself.
“We should try to match our physical beats with the beats of the bliss that will be considered as our life beats. For some, bliss is not just an external stimulus, but is an experience pertaining to the soul. The lens that you use to view your life shapes your definition of it. Your idea of ultimate blessedness is not about them. It is about you, about your likes and dislikes and about exploring yourself.
Cut a few cm & I’m excited about it. Also, autumn’s around the corner. You know, 20something°C, maple leaves, atmospheric lighting…
SEPTEMBER 2
Mel place. It would not be if they didn’t have such music though. Surprisingly enough, Starbucks also had some jazz going on in the background today.
SEPTEMBER 3
Perhaps we have gotten in a Delorean but no, we chilled that these Starbucks, we found an album from ‘11 & we recreated our picture at the same place ♡ I was talking about magic yesterday & I found this today by chance~
SEPTEMBER 11
SEPTEMBER 15
SEPTEMBER 20Romanticise the places in your life, not the faces. Because all that exists is you at the present moment, the person you are & your vibrations. If there is not love where you stand, no place will ever matter & no face will ever be a genuine connection in your life. Romanticise being by yourself in silence, walking down the streets, drinking your coffee. My Seoul lifestyle taught me that, it helped me see me in clarity. I miss my “lonely” life there because all I had was me & that’s what really mattered. 「All you need is you; the rest just fall into place」
SEPTEMBER 21
SEPTEMBER 26
Deep cleaning my space helps me a lot with self-discipline. Of course I can get focused with my spirit being here 100% when I work on or study something I like but having a tidy, organised space feels like all of your thoughts, all of your worries are gone or seem less powerful (which have no power in first place, who are we kidding?) 『A little story… Self-discipline saved me from my panic attacks back in ‘18. Being at a mental state where you feel like your body’s going to give you up & wake up in an emergency room all by yourself in a foreign place was scary as hell. I was living the worst case scenario (& kept making more in my head) with no back-up help from anyone, had no safe place at all, it was scary & I felt like a big loser, outsider because everybody was ok, was safe at their own space, financially secure, with someone to be by their side in hard times. Being proud though that at such powerless time, I had no “saviour” because it opened up a world of an a͟t͟t͟a͟c͟h͟m͟e͟n͟t͟-f͟r͟e͟e͟ l͟i͟f͟e͟& it was life-altering getting to know a side of you that was asleep before. A self-discipline quote appeared out of nowhere & I was reciting it on my mind most of the day. Words of strength got me all angry for feeling mistreated & perseverance became a shield. It was like Aluna George saying “Lately I’ve been thinking if you wanna get tough then let’s play rough” in White Noise』 ・Getting vulnerable is the way to building a strong character with dignity ・ If self-discipline helped with panic attacks to the point of meeting a whole new person inside of you then it can help with the smallest. Ok, reader? You just have to get uncomfortable. That’s the power of the habit~ You know, then your brain’s nerves actually get to function at their full, not be static.
SEPTEMBER 29
My hangout place has got a great view of the sky. It was missing the sound of crickets though; I would love that. The best blue shade is right after sunset 〈7:47pm〉
OCTOBER 2
I had to get my Candlelight & chill at my hangout place after being at such a crowded place today at the festival. I was looking for crepes but I got so lost in the crowd that my nervous system shut down for a moment. Sensory overload. I get nervous & awkward, you know it. Mel does not fancy when that happens.
OCTOBER 5
Yesterday I hopefully went out in the afternoon so my router found some peace after getting wrongly accused but… we mainly 「lost our marbles」 creating these. Totally spontaneous but my request was because this coord was on hold until October comes🦇 It’s Halloween season, what would you expect from Mel anyway? Of course I wore a blazer outside. （A little something. Apparently I don’t know “en face”, I only know “en profile”. All jokes aside, looking directly at the camera & the one behind it makes me feel nervous. Witnessing this uncomfortable emotion on the last slide as loosing my cool feels like an entertaining kind of trainwreck. Let’s agree I have to balance my personas out somehow.）
OCTOBER 10
〈6:50pm to 8:40pm〉 Been a really busy week at work and I feel so content. A little story… In my dream I saw a person I know who’s now in a heavy metal band. Totally random~ Well, at work, the only normal station I could find was playing rock. This song played over the radio so many times but unfortunately I was too busy to look for it. But tonight, right after it started pouring like crazy, it came on & I finally found it. Is it popular? I’ve got no idea. I live in a different world. And I love it, so it’s here to stay as a memory because it went great with this hard rain. ⇒LoveBites
OCTOBER 12
M colour ★ What did I want to say? ⠀ Oh yes, well, apologise & move on from mistreating your big world mistakingly trying to fit it into somebody else’s microcosm. We all start by collecting or losing pieces that create our unique micro world. As time passes by & you zoom out you see how this world has gotten enriched with everything that is you; colours, scents, sounds, emotions, values, preferences & goes on. Not that a microcosmos is bad but some are just so tiny & poor with no sparkles that cannot ever grow into a big world. Some are just black holes (which literally suck)~ And well, you cannot cruise into them, you know. Plus, there are waves that redirect you & that’s good because opposites.do.not.attract.
OCTOBER 17
OCTOBER 18
One of the most epic Mondays.⠀ We romantics are so grateful for this air~ ⠀ We had a great laugh with all of these people starting a convo with us out of the blue. What happened today? kkk⠀ By the way, doesn’t a hand shake say a lot about a person’s character?
OCTOBER 31
Uninspired these weeks but wore brown with purple today so that’s a good sign.
NOVEMBER 8
NOVEMBER 12
Manifesting a stroll around my second hometown in my dreams tonight.
NOVEMBER14
After a digital cleaning spree & whole new update, I
started thinking that I also need to do something to remind me of
something “vital”. This is a really random decision but from the moment I
got this idea like a year ago, I’d be like “this is not that important”
but every time I’d get lost I’d be like “Ugh I should have done it”.
I’m going to do it for real this time. End of story. Nobody knows what
I’m talking about. Cool~ that’s the spirit ☆
NOVEMBER 15
These eyes ♡
NOVEMBER 24
In love with Athens again, yes. It’s a love-hate of course like Seoul.
I do not usually go downtown & I don’t like going out when it gets dark in winter, but… with all of these lights it feels so warm & cozy to wander around the center of Athens. Sorry for not writing that a few minutes ago when I posted this but with the right company everything feels different. Thank you for such time today ☆
I do not usually go downtown & I don’t like going out when it gets dark in winter, but… with all of these lights it feels so warm & cozy to wander around the center of Athens. Sorry for not writing that a few minutes ago when I posted this but with the right company everything feels different. Thank you for such time today ☆
NOVEMBER 26
No make, frizz hair but make it cool.
DECEMBER 6
Off because I’m not fond of night shots. I need light, nature, something pretty but I don’t go to places much lately, especially before sunrise. I need certain hues for my neurones to fully function or else I’m numb, suffocated.
That’s an intro to me wanting to change my hair colour too. I can’t with the same stuff!!!
Everything is a bore lately & I’m rolling a Katamari trying to capture all of the sparkly items so I can make a star to fill my cosmos.
I need to create something new but what?! 💣💥
DECEMBER 9
When will that dullness leave? I’m just waiting for it to
finish its circle. Seeking for some inspiration somewhere &
enlightenment to make some analysis. It’s so static but I thank whatever
great out there that cats exist & the love of my life is
accompanying me.
DECEMBER12
Mel thought she was going to rot or
something (don’t facepalm reading this). It was as dramatic as I express
it. Down the hill in every aspect until I got into the semi-final part
of dying my hair & found some meaning. My neurones just need some sort of INTENSE stimulation so my mind won’t get rusty.
I also wore pink & used pink hue when editing the colours of this picture. Maybe I got some of my inspiration back from listening to Peaches & Come In as well.
I also feel like I got my hime-kaji back but onee version.
I also wore pink & used pink hue when editing the colours of this picture. Maybe I got some of my inspiration back from listening to Peaches & Come In as well.
I also feel like I got my hime-kaji back but onee version.
DECEMBER13
I got my inspiration back so I’m gonna make it long, I don’t give a damn. If you find something that touches you keep it.
I really embraced changing my mind about things this year. An attitude or bias towards something. I had a certain idea of how my life is in its normal version. I saw it on a September post of mine here & I felt kind of uneasy reading it as… I have changed my mind about this.
There’s no normal version. My 20s was whatever but I would always find my way no matter where I’d place myself. Maybe with a different character & spirit but we got through this, including the worst stuff too. Because people don’t talk about the bad. It was mostly unconsciously my fault because I was a lamebrained gal & other times it was just life happening. That’s ok~ Everything’s in life & I feel proud of having so many stories to tell & I’m not a boring person~
Imagine being the same version from sometime in the distant past. Hmmm, to even think some people have an out-dated version of you on their mind makes me giggle because they don’t know a thing kkk Especially when even in the present time they don’t know you at all because they do not care to understand you~ so… don’t give a damn & express yourself freely, UNAPOLOGETICALLY. You never know when you’re gonna leave so do not live with regrets of not expressing or living vividly.
Anyway, there’s no waiting for a “normal” version. Stop waiting for something but do wait for whatever you desire with a grateful heart, don’t worry. When in Rome… yes, this saying, which actually got me out of a black hole this year.
Once again, resistance does not let you see what you have in front of you in order to gain deeper insight. We are our own obstacles without knowing it, simply because we don’t have the knowledge to enter our shadow paths & it’s quite scary without anyone guiding you with some light.
I stop here because I started getting abstract. The attitude of this post is: PARTY. FEEL. LOVE. ☆
I really embraced changing my mind about things this year. An attitude or bias towards something. I had a certain idea of how my life is in its normal version. I saw it on a September post of mine here & I felt kind of uneasy reading it as… I have changed my mind about this.
There’s no normal version. My 20s was whatever but I would always find my way no matter where I’d place myself. Maybe with a different character & spirit but we got through this, including the worst stuff too. Because people don’t talk about the bad. It was mostly unconsciously my fault because I was a lamebrained gal & other times it was just life happening. That’s ok~ Everything’s in life & I feel proud of having so many stories to tell & I’m not a boring person~
Imagine being the same version from sometime in the distant past. Hmmm, to even think some people have an out-dated version of you on their mind makes me giggle because they don’t know a thing kkk Especially when even in the present time they don’t know you at all because they do not care to understand you~ so… don’t give a damn & express yourself freely, UNAPOLOGETICALLY. You never know when you’re gonna leave so do not live with regrets of not expressing or living vividly.
Anyway, there’s no waiting for a “normal” version. Stop waiting for something but do wait for whatever you desire with a grateful heart, don’t worry. When in Rome… yes, this saying, which actually got me out of a black hole this year.
Once again, resistance does not let you see what you have in front of you in order to gain deeper insight. We are our own obstacles without knowing it, simply because we don’t have the knowledge to enter our shadow paths & it’s quite scary without anyone guiding you with some light.
I stop here because I started getting abstract. The attitude of this post is: PARTY. FEEL. LOVE. ☆
Hair by Ms. Mel of Athens.
Working on one of my favourite J-R&B artists, I realized I got hyper-focused at some point that I had no clue about the time. I might get lost from the world but I feel found in there, if that makes sense. Creating is vital. Wishing to work more on stuff I like in the future.
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