If you want to remember someone...

 

This is a stand alone page created if you want to remember someone.  If you need a corner filled with love to hide. If the world feels too much, too dark, too empty, too cold without them, here is this little pixel space for your heart to be seen.

In the moment I write this, I'm sane & ok, with a clear head, not filled with sadness.

Somehow the only justice for these who left this world is to live loving.

In order to do justice is to love while we are alive, to bring light for a light that is gone.

You cannot grasp they are gone & it also feels unfair, this fills you with anger. In your head you recall their voice, their mannerisms, their laughter, every little thing. An image that does not exist. You cannot wrap your head around it...

That anger turns on a fire inside of you. That fire brings light, it's such an intense feeling in your chest.

There's nothing else than moving forward, living life in your TRUEST.

To love to the fullest. It's so sad, so unfair but all that's left is to... love.

We are a SPECTRUM, we are energy and we are never gone, just transformed. 

We cannot grasp a lot of stuff in this world, we are not entirely Gods to be that enlightened & be ok.

We can be clowns, make others laugh, be optimistic, that's what others might see but we are not ok at times because we feel so damaged from this loss & grief. And it is ok & it will be ok.

We will keep on dancing a very vigorous dance, fill ourselves up with vitality.

When the love you have for someone cannot go to them anymore, you just feel devastated.

It's a crazy feeling to miss someone who is not on this plane with you. An endless lament that you truly feel like nothing matters at all, why do you keep going? 

I hate to say it but there's always light. I hate to say it because I have feelings of denial. 

But all it is left is love & gratitude. They don't know right now but if they knew, they'd want us to remember them but not get lost in our grief.

Somehow when you experience loses, you get robbed of something I cannot explain. Maybe of something familiar, of a witness. Someone has witnessed life moments with you.

I hate when I get all enlightened but that's what it really has to happen in order to neutralize it. I believe if someone left under peaceful circumstances, we would all have a different view on this. We associate it with pain because it's the body that goes first.

Isn't it crazy that when the physical is not ok, the spirit has to go as well? It's also the mental that can affect the physical. But if the spirit just left when it felt like it was ok to leave, we'd all have different view for sure.

That's when you question the thing itself. It robbed you out of somebody, you cannot comprehend it. You question your own life, you get stubborn & you get angry, that cannot be it. 

There must be something more to it... 

 

 

And it all comes back to love. There is no other feeling, really. Do we come here to reach love? If we were nobodies before, why is it painful to be nobodies again? No-bodies... 

The absence of love is darkness. If we lived a life without love, it would be a life lost in the dark. We would hide, not be true. We would lead blind, not with our hearts open. But if we choose love even in the darkest times, there's always love waiting to hold us.

It's so hard to grasp the after... but how about now? The very now & every now? Why don't we grasp the now & glorify it?

If we become only but a memory, why don't we just love to the fullest & to the realest? Fill our life with only the essentials for our hearts? If we don't love, speak of love, act of love maybe there's something wrong & maybe even we are already gone. Nothing else really matters & that's why the small everyday things are so precious all of a sudden. Boredom is not boredom anymore, it's just stillness, observing life.

Maybe we came to the lowest vibration planet to enjoy its fruits. Find a truth that leads us back to our spirit, to the abundance that we used to be. We are taught fear but we are also taught love. 

Will we approach life with fear or love? 

Let go of the unknown. What do you know? Love. Let it lead the way.  

So be here now. Go back to love again & again & again.