Sovereignty-Surgery

Soooo months ago I published a post that was talking about this topic but decided to revert it to drafts as I was talking about another topic as well that was not important anymore & I had to remove its power.

 

PS:I'm finally letting you know about my surgery.

So the post went like this...

 

「Personal empowerment」

 

That's a topic that could speak a lot to gals.

 

An ex friend of mine said something along the lines of "if a guy likes/accepts you as you are then you should not change/improve/evolve yourself into someone more powerful/confident". She was "wishing" I "sleep" with the guy we had no relationship at all & him commenting on my body & then me changing my mind about changing anything... 

That.was.shocking. VERY VERY OFFENSIVE & DEGRADING.

 

The fact that some entities feed each other's egos through sex is beyond degrading in my eyes. Exchanging my energy for validation...? Are you serious? Where the fck do we live? Are we that empty, soulless inside that we are looking for someone to worship us in order to  get convinced to love ourselves or that we are worthy? What in the world??? 

Me? Validation? From who? Somebody else other than ... MYSELF? 
Please, I'm with myself my whole life & I will always be. I AM my validation.

You are your validation!
That's our gal power!

And if I change anything on my body that's because I like to evolve in such way.

My make up, my hair, my fashion, my build, my diet. 

I like having a physical transformation to match how I feel inside.

I'm someone who likes to level things up when they feel like they have to match the energy they feel inside. I like to embody how I feel. Well, aren't we all in various ways?         That's our fashion!

Same goes of course for my life decisions. My career & pretty much everything.
I am the one who holds my own vision. Just trust me & support me.

 

So thankful to the people in my life who...

1. Are excited about me & recognize that a glow-up isn't just about looks but about energy & self-mastery.

2. Trust I'm making a decision from a place of self-love, not desperation. Obviously it means they know ME as Mel.

3. Understand that making an upgrade is not a betrayal to who I was before. I cherish every Mel in different ways. I like having different eras as an artist. They all serve something different.

4. They stay clear & supportive without mixing their hidden emotions.

5. They offer presence, not control by being ready to support me in this without trying to persuade me to change my mind.


So I'm here to remind you.


1. Being "accepted" by someone is not the highest compliment or form of love. Others' self-worth & ego issues are not your issues. These are THEIR limits.

2. Your body & whatever you do in life should NOT be & doesn't have to be validated by anyone's approval.

 
3. Someone not celebrating you but instead they feel uncomfortable/threatened & try to pull you back, is clearly about them.

4. Stepping into your power sadly triggers people who are not in their own center & feel threatened they are less than you. Delusion. We all are powerful. Be proud of everything you are, you have in life & is in your power to change, be it internally or externally.

These stuff just say a lot more about someone else's conditioning, 

fears & insecurities than about you.

It shows a mindset of seeking permission 

from others while you're moving into a mindset of SELF-OWNERSHIP.

Repeat after me:

Whenever someone projects their fear or limits onto me, 

I instantly recognize it’s about them, not me.

Their doubts are the reflection of their own cage

while I am free to expand, evolve & embody my highest self.

I trust my vision.

I am building myself not for approval or permission but for me.

Nobody gets a vote on my evolution except me.

Their opinion is about their own limits. It has nothing to do with what I deserve. 

 
 

Closing this with a Twice song I love a lot which has got great lyrics. 

"Inside of me"

So yeah, that was the post I made months before

my breast augmentation surgery~ 

I'm not a total straight person & I'd like certain visuals from when I was a lil girl so I knew that someday that visual would be me. I'm not just attracted to the same sex but I'm also attracted to myself because I'm that sex. Call me autosexual lol coz I do. Is the most accurate word "attraction" or "ADMIRATION"??? I knew in my 30s I would do it but I didn't know that I was just a decision away from it & I finally did it in my early 30s. 

And it was all because I was trying to focus on myself as much as I could so I was doing more & more stuff for myself. Being there for me 100% & for my needs was taking my mind away from situations that brought me down emotionally. Somehow instead of letting things bring me down, they made my inner fire grow bigger. I wanted to get out of reach of lower emotions, of outer sources affecting my energy. I went the complete other way. Fine, you may not love me, but I do. I won't harm me like you did, I will go the other direction & offer it all to myself. Somehow trying to focus on other stuff became inner fire. I don't need your validation, I have M E. Of course that led to my surgery that I had in mind since last year but I would not decide it as I thought that would be an unreasonable financial investment as I was both planning my trip to Japan.

Only if you'd want I would create a post about the whole process of it, so let me know.