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Giiiiirls~  arrest me for coming here to make a post & not posting ever again T-T

I appreciate your comments every time TvT for you caring like that TvT 

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No, really. I have gotten off the internet. Sometimes I'd be fired up about something & start writing a post but then I'd leave hah. 

I use my Samsung flip4 for calls when I go out & I don't have any chat socials on it at all. Android it is. Customizable, elegant. 

I had gotten soooo tired of my huge iphone11, I'm only gonna use it to film & edit vids whenever I travel.

I don't know how you feel about the internet but back in the day, us who were the first users of the internet, things were different. 

 

I'm doing so many stuff in my life but I go out only once a week as always. 

It's the same stuff always but stuff I love. Vietnamese & italian food, buying food & sweets, walking, sewing. Some would say I'm doing unemployed stuff~  I'm semi-unemployed actually. I don't like routines, I like different stuff for each period, that works best for my nervous system. For a few months I work a lot, some other months I just have more free time. I'm an artist, I'm a rebel. 

I like giving my own definitions in my life. For example I don't believe in the word perfect anymore. I believe in the word EXCELLENCE. Excellence comes from your spirit, while perfection is kinda fake. You create excellence. You have a path & in this path there will be various circumstances, challenges. It won't be a completely clear sky. And you walk with excellence through these challenges, even if you get hurt, even if you lose something along the way. In the end, you have gained so much wisdom & you deliver something with excellence. It has soul. I think people who have gotten through their darkest know that nothing matters but somehow from such darkness some kind of light starts leaking just because of how desperate they are for some meaning. From the moment you start seeing with your heart, whatever you see with your eyes just fail. It's like with blind people. Their other senses are getting heightened. Maybe we are all born blind but feeling is giving us vision. That's why perfection is actually for the eyes but excellence is for the heart. 

I don't know, do you feel me? I've been so emotionally disappointed that I have created my own world in me & magically I stopped tolerating shallowness that was disguised as entertainment. I was trying to bond, even with relatives, but there was nothing beneath the surface, especially reciprocity. 

Also, I have nobody older than me as an inspiration, as a "role model". NO.BO.DY. Just me. You grow up & you see some stuck up "adults" that could be your parent or your aunt or your grandma & you're like "Seriously? am I supposed to think highly of you?". Gals... this is such a joke. I have seen people in their 50s+ that make me feel ashamed for associating with them or respecting them in first place, but I do coz social etiquette. Don't expect me to have a role model or take someone older than me seriously. We all suck in our own ways but no, I won't take somebody's blahblah for my own. Not anymore at least, in my 30s. For God's sake, I have my own true circles where they are all so confident of the way they lead their life & they have no inferiority complex & try to bring my own living down. And I love how they are all minding their own business confidently. They might have their own fears, insecurities but they would never deem my own way as wrong. They believe in themselves & they believe in me as well. And friends like that inspire me to be more confident about the way I move in life. Again, excellence~ 

Am I being too adulty? But if I'm being, am I your favourite adult? Because to me, I'm my favourite mother figure for myself.

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Anyway~ I went out yesterday & I decided to see how is it like filming with my flip4 so I took some videos while doing my make.

I've been renovating my room & I'm planning to make a video of it when it's completely done.

Also, I wanted to make a designated post for my surgery but... hmm, might bring a post back I had made months ago coz I loved it. 

Here are some Athens pics for you. If you don't fancy it yet, I'm showing you things so you can start fancying it. 

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My best friend got me these cosmetics & I could not be more grateful TvT

The pallete is called "The Cherry icon". It says online it's a rich berry palette. I adoooooore berry shades. I swatched them so many times until I decide. I was between this one & "The enchanted icon" coz of the glitters.

Then the pout tint is called "Mad about mauve". Just like I said to my friend "Oh it got in my hands!". And the pout bomb is called "Kiss baby pink". Kinda irritated with these glosses that burn your lips up but I did not realize it was this kind but the colour's nice so who said I'm not gonna wear it anyway?

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