June 1/3

Did I just wait until the last day of June to make a post about it?

Well, it's Monday 30th & I cannot bring myself to get out of my air conditioned room.

With the mercury thermometer over 34°C, if I've got no business being outside then I won't be outside.

Took me almost a day to make this post lol.

I truuuuly should stick to just posting weekly.

But I will post them in parts instead.

Crazily stuff I have written on my last post

actually got resolved from the beginning of this post...

You'll see, you'll see~

Also, lots of josei manga stuff (& high sht) to keep you entertained hahah

Thursday 11th

So on Thursday I went for laser treatment & then had a very spontaneous outing. I love spontaneous outings! They are the best!

The girl from my charismatic's friend group invited me for bbq. I talked with her & I thought it would just be just a girly outing but then my charismatic was like "Will you come from my place so we can go together to her house?". And after hours I realized that... he was not working the next day & that I was also supposed to stay at his house the night lol. I had no idea but I got pleasantly surprised. Like, remembering this day brings me so much excitement. ALSO! It was the start of Mundial.

...I LOVE SPONTANEOUS OUTINGS, THEY BRING ME LIFE!

Also, so many epic moments kkk

Am I the one showing I'm nonchalant? I swear how many times my brain had to re-calibrate itself from seeing him being so cute.

Then in the morning, along with my iced latte, we were listening to Anotr's new album.

Ah this viewwwww~ So hard to leave it every damn Monday.

Saturday 13th

So I was working in the morning & Athens seemed so lively, I had to go out!

I also had nothing planned that day & because I knew it was Pride day, I texted a girl we'd go out briefly in the past who is now a known techno dj that I wanna go see her set she's gonna have on Pride but I've got nobody to go with. And she told me I can come backstage with her friends & so did I~

That afternoon I found out my fave track from Withness album & I was listening & dancing to it nonstop while getting ready.

Of course I dropped by the restaurant to see him first. So cute he wanted to tell me bye before I leave ;-;

I got backstage with her & her friends & we still had time until she starts her set so I left a lil bit, I got free ice cream they had at the Pride & run to the restaurant & told someone to put it in the freezer for him to eat hihi.

Then I also got on the stage to check the crowd & danced a lil bit. It was so damn exciting seeing an excited crowd. My friend told me that when she plays she zones out & does not see the crowd much.

My other friend from the restaurant came & we chilled a lil bit at the park.

When my friend finished her set, I went to the restaurant carrying as many ice creams I could carry with my hands for the rest of the people who had their shift. Then we walked a bit when he finished work & I went to go find my parents so we can head back home.

What a great Athens niiiiiight~

Sunday 14th

You know, Sunday's our established day. His words! haha

I was watching the match from outside a cafe until it was time he finishes his shift.

It was the night Japan was playing & he had placed a bet. It was so heartwarming seeing him so excited he placed a bet on a certain player scoring a goal & him getting so excited coz indeed that player scored a goal! My heart melt a million times in a span of a few seconds seeing him like that. Sadly another player scored with a header right after him so... my charismatic's soul left his body. He was so excited & then... My fcking heart. Help.

In-between matches, we started watching the listening session of Anotr's album & Mel... Mel confessed something. You know I cannot be direct with him, I simply can't, I feel like the world is gonna end if I do.

They were talking about what inspired them to make this album

& I said "They were thinking of you when they were creating the album"

or something along these lines lol,

my neurones were shocked

I was mouthing these words

out loud disfjadsjfd,

do you think I can remember correctly?

And he was like "Naaah" in disbelief

as if I was stating a fact or something haha.

Then Mel said it...

"Well, in any case, that's what I think of when I listen to it"

"What? Me?"

"Yes" with a fckin straight face & my head completely numb.

My system felt a relief I made a tiny confession as if I've been holding it for too long.

I don't know how he received it coz we never know what's going on in his mind~ He gave me an electrifying caress on my leg & opened his arm so he can hug me & I just stayed there on his chest without moving at all for a while.

Anyway, WITHNESS? Can I just unroll it here? From the moment I read this word it really just clicked. Instead of being a simple witness in life, you get into togetherness. So it's with others. And with is also within. You get into within with withness. the togetherness. I love this word they made up! Every time I see it, I imagine a flow of energy like torus from the chest area. Coz if you think about it, someone creates music from within then you listen to it & it also gets within you. And when you share it with someone else, it gets so intimate because you're both in a within process at the moment, all of the melodies you both absorb, uuuugh! it's so intimate! Such a fullness withness is.